Not Feeling well

Hello everyone.
If i am not on here much, it is because I am not doing well.
I have either very good days or very bad days. It seems to be getting worse. The good days are fewer. 
The doctors ran some tests and found some shocking results. After/during the blood clots and TIAs, something was damaged in my brain. I get zero REM sleep. None at all. It means my brain does not properly rest and it is detrimental to my whole body. The doctors had never seen it this bad and were unable to give me any sort of solution. They just don't know enough about REM sleep yet. I talked to all of my different doctors and we are trying everything we can think of, anything that might even remotely help. Medicine adjustments, holistic treateaments, actions and altering sleep patterns are taking their toll. It all just takes time. My neurological problems are getting worse while we are trying these treatments. I am trying very hard, but right now I just have to put things on hold. I may post or log on sporadically, but right now I just need for everyone to try to understand that I may not be here. 
Thank you for all your well-wishing.
Never Give up
Hotaru